DEFCON

DEFCON 2

July 2, 2024

I was at work and I was on the phone with someone and they were telling me about the sexual assault they had survived. The story brought me to tears. I was already breaking down. I knew but I didn’t know what was on that video. I knew. I couldn’t function the rest of the day. I think I took the day off. I couldn’t stop crying. I knew what was on that fucking video so I watched it. Like actually watched it. I decided at first it wasn’t real. It looked fucking bad, but it couldn’t have been. Watch it again. Yeah no it looks bad it just looks bad. watch it again. Watch it again.

The next day all I did was watch that video. Over and over again. It can’t be rape. It can’t be. But I watched it over and over and finally I realized it looks bad because it is bad and I had gone through that.

My world shattered in that moment.

I needed to talk to {D}. I needed to talk to him before my son got there so I could try to be stable for him. I’m not always the most stable parent. I needed to have everything figured out for him so I wasn’t having a nervous breakdown in front of him.

July 3, 2024

{D} very unceremoniously announced he won’t be back until Wednesday instead of Sunday from his supposed visit to Georgia to help his daughter suddenly move. I knew he never left town.  I went into a panic attack. I texted back within milliseconds and he refused to answer. My son was coming Tuesday I needed to figure out what happened to my life before then.

{D} cruelly texted me later that he knew I couldn’t do it.

DEFCON 1

July 4th 2024

At this point we just needed to speak. I needed to confront him about the video and get my head straightened out for my kid. I knew he wasn’t in Georgia so I drove over to his building with the fucking key fob he gave me and will you look at that, his used fucking e class was missing. So I messaged him. I told him I didn’t care I wasn’t mad just fucking get rid of her because we needed to talk. He doubled down then, then he tells me he had a heart attack and was in the hospital. Now the imagination is a tizzy with ideas on this from did he actually fake a heart attack for her too? He claims it was real. Maybe a panic attack from realizing he is in check mate and can’t bring his girlfriend home for the fireworks because I there with the goddamn key fob.

I sat there for a couple hours I told him he raped me. I waited until it was well after dark. I stared at the police station half a block in front of me and watched that video. I thought about what to do. I wanted him to show up so I could punch him.

I decided to go home. But first I emailed him and told him someone knocked over his bike. That was probably the coolest I have ever been because as I was driving out security was running up. Like a goddamn movie. I didn’t touch his bike, just wanted to make sure he had a heart attack.

I wrote the email:

Sir-

I want to make you aware of the moral character of your deputy. {D} is a sexual predator. He is an alcoholic who regularly shows up at work under the influence of alcohol. He has 3 DWIs several arrests and has admitted to sexually assaulting a woman in college.

I was also sexually assaulted by {D} at a cocaine fueled party. I have attached a video of the incident that I believe speaks for itself.

Do with this information as you will. I may be a jilted lover and admittedly I have mental health issues. If I were to take this to the police, they wouldn’t believe me and, giving credit where credit is due, {D}  is far too good of a lawyer.  But being an appointee of the governor of the great state of Nevada and serving at his leisure, I felt perhaps you should be made aware of his character.

Thank you for your time.

I don’t know what response I thought I would get or what would happen. I was not thinking clearly in the least and I think the clearest point was that I thought he would get away with it if I took police action.  I was in hindsight correct about that.

Everything I said was truth. He did have, by his account 3 DWIs. {D} did on a regular basis show up to work still drunk to the point I almost took his keys a few times. He did by his account sexually assault someone in college. He did all these things and he raped me.

I texted {D} asking if we were going to talk about it and no response. I then said I would just walk away and he would never hear from me again. He told me “walk away then.” I sent the email before he answered. I said “are you sure?” And he said “I think so“  then I told him to check his email because I cc’d him.

His next response was “that’s not walking away. Do I need to talk to your dad about this?”

Please note he has never met my dad. I'm 45 fucking years old and he threatened to call my daddy Also, you have just been publicly accused of rape and instead of defending yourself you threaten to call an adults parents? That was his first thought, not a denial not "how could you accuse me of such a thing!" No he was going to call my daddy. That was his first reaction